To Blessed to Be Stressed

What happens when you cant smile through the tears anymore? What happens when the pain of being alone is too much? What happens when you realize that you will never be good enough? What happens when your worst fears of being alone are coming true? What happens when the only thing in life you desire is dangled in front of you day after day but just out of your grasp?

What happens when you want to walk away? I want to walk away. What happens when you cant imagine life if you walked away but cant stand living life in the in-between?

What happens when you finally ask, "When is it MY turn to get what I want??" Am I selfish for wanting something. I never stomp my feet and throw a fit if I dont get my way. I was raised better than that. But What happens when its always what someone else wants and never what you want? After so many years of always keeping things the way someone else wants,,, you break. I just want something to go my way... I just want one measly little dream to come true. Im not asking for world peace. Im not asking for the moon. Im not asking for a mansion. I just want to be chosen... I want to be picked before ANYTHING else.... I want to be important. I just want to be happy. Sitting home alone day and day, week after week, year after year is not what makes me happy.

Yea... 2 stupid comercials made me cry... stupid stoffers family gathering comercial and black friday jewelry promotions... stupid comercials... Im going to bed... sorry two back to back venting.