Good

Today was a good day. I really was dreading having to go to the church today and listen to everyone talk about the wedding. But you know what... I did ok. I guess occupying myself studying helped, but I really was impressed with myself. Angie and Linda even told me that she is glad to see me handling this as classy as I have. I guess everyone thought I was going to have a mental breakdown of some sort... haha . Its not me, its the Lord helping me to put one foot in front of the other, or I know I wouldn't have been able to make it.

And spending a couple hours with James was exactly what I needed. It wasn't anything huge... and thats what I love about us. I love that I dont have to go do something extravagant to be happy! As long as I have him by my side! Just having dinner and hanging out in the wedding loft was so nice. I love that building... its so neat... I LOVE old buildings!! I get my love of antiques from my papaw! I love historic Jbourough. Vikki and I used to just spend hours walking in and out of the shops looking at antiques (mostly junk haha)... I miss that :(

I have some good memories in Jbourough :) Fourth of July eating at that interesting restaurant haha and then watching fireworks. Fourth of July parade with James, spent the day with him and the horses... it was a blast! Then last year, we went to watch fireworks together and ended up with ALL the kids in the truck with us... I was so upset... haha but then I was humbled that they want to spend time with us, and only pray that we can leave a positive impression on them. One of the girls told me last week, that she wants a relationship like me and James. She said she wanted to be able to serve in church together with he boyfriend. She said she wants to sing with her future boyfriend. That FLOORED me!!! These kids are watching EVERY move me make!! YIKES... anyway back to memories haha Walking around with James after lunch one evening. Storytelling festival last year. All the times with Vikki... gosh I miss my bestie :( Jbourough is such a cool little place... I love it :) reminds me alot of growing up back home.

I am thankful for being able to trust God. I am thankful for being able to listen to him. I am thankful for the patience that he is building in me.

I am thankful for James, that just being with him makes everything else disappear for the time Im with him. Today was nice. It seems like were always bombarded and surrounded with people anywhere we go. I wasn't particularly fond of the restaurant, but it wasnt busy and it was just quaint I guess is the word Im looking for. Then just piddling in the wedding loft... no one was there to bother us!!! HAHA I know this sounds selfish... but I like having him to myself haha only child syndrome I guess haha " HES MINE!!!" lol I feel like I share him all the time, and I got him to myself this evening and it was so good for my heart. I think it was good for US... to not have someone wanting something from either of us... it was just US. Time for us to enjoy each others company. I love that man... and hope I never fail to let him know that I love him. I hope there are more moments like today stashed along the way. :)

I know theres a kick in the stomach around the corner somewhere... but I will bring it back to the moments when I am able to take a good FIRM step forward like I did today and remember that I can do all things with Jesus on my side!!