alone

I wish that I could get past all these feelings. I am so tired of being alone. My Spring break is this week and Im spending it alone. My room mate is going to gatlinburg, and then James is going to Ohio with some other woman... sigh I shouldn't say it that way. But I guess Im maybe jealous because she is getting time with him that I want... Am I jealous? Not like that because I trust him... I guess I am jealous because she gets 4 days with him and Im lucky to get 4 hours. I got 45 minutes today and that was since last Sunday..,. and now I wont see him till Sunday again... So that she get 4 days with him is driving me nuts. Call me nuts, but there isn't one person in this world that I would rather be with than him. I get frustrated because of my school and work schedule because I haven't gotten to spend much time with him, and I thought that with my spring break, I would at least see him... it went the complete opposite direction.

I love James with all my heart... Im just tired of being alone...