2010

Ahh... home from a news years eve service at church. I must say, I cant think of any other way I would like to spend this holiday. Tonight was special though. I asked the Lord earlier today to let James pray with me tonight. And God answered that prayer for me. Even though he's not my "spouse" ha ha I wanted to spend that moment with him. I am grateful that the Lord granted that request for me.

The Lord truly does know the desires of our heart. And in my case, even the ones I dont know about. I forgot how much I missed his hand in mine. Even though all my "boy" trouble in high school and all my "wild" days (which by the way weren't THAT bad...ha ha) God knew exactly what I needed. He knew what I wanted in a man before I did. I dont even think I knew that when I met James. But I know that I soon was shown what I wanted. Exactly what James is. I hope he reads this ;) God gave me a sweet, compassionate, brilliant, handsome, talented, Godly, wonderful, Loving, warm, kind man! He gave me a man that is strong enough to make me feel safe and secure in his arms, yet gentle enough to know that he would never hurt me in any way. He gave me a man that I long to be with and spend time with no matter what were doing as long and I can be with him. I am so unbelievably blessed with James! I am undoubtedly the lucky one...

And in all my impatience (and every church member ha ha) Im thankful that he is waiting and discerning Gods timing. And even though he knows I am impatient...I will wait as long as it takes, because I know that God brought him to me and I would be the stupidest girl around to let that go! Im lucky no one snatched him up before me... Im so thankful that the Lord allowed me to skip over all the "junk" out there and sent me the love of my life, someone that I one day want to spend my entire life with.

Im not going to lie 2009 was a tough year. Emotionally, physically, spiritually, financially... It brought so many unexpected things to me. But instead of dwelling on the bad, instead Im dwelling on the good. I am healthy, I have a job, I have a roof over my head, plenty of clothes to wear, my cabinets are filled, my truck runs and has gas...I am blessed beyond what I deserve. I am excited about 2010... No matter what it brings, I know I have James, my church family, my family (no matter how dysfunctional... which by the way is getting better) and most of all I have God in my corner fighting for me. What more could I ask for! Welcome 2010...