Lord move

This is a very sad/scary time for our church. I really want Gods will, but I dont think I can sit on a pew much longer and not be fed. I know I cant completely rely on the preacher to feed me and I have to search out Gods word and get fed by God, but I go to church for my meat. We found out last night that for another month the preacher will be coming back for another month. I dont know exactly what is going on, but I do know that the preacher stood before us and said that he could not be out pastor as he felt like God was leading him elsewhere. I just dont understand. I know Gods ways are higher and I certainly know that God can change minds and as James said to me last night, Im glad that God changes minds. I look at last Wednesday night, I was having such a horrible week and had really fallen into being depressed, I almost didnt go to church. The only reason I went was because I knew someone different was preaching. It would have been so easy to go home.

I find myself at a crossroad now. I love my church family. But I need meat. I dont need sugar coated desert messages every service. I need conviction and soul stirring. I dont even know where to begin to look for a new church. I know that I dont want to move now and it not be when God wants me to move. I dont want to leave. I am scared plain and simple. An old FFH song has been in my mind since last night. It is something hard to sing because in my flesh I want to stay where I am comfortable. But as the song says, Lord Move or Move me.

I can't find the words to pray
I'm a little down today
Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
I feel like a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can you hear me anyway?
What I need is for you to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what you'd understand

Lord move in a way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.


I've looked very where to find
A simple peace of mind
I can't find nothing on my own
So I got to leave myself behind
Take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto

Lord I know the only way is through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this

Lord move in a way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.

Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with thee
Cause I am weak but Lord you are so strong
And you know it's been way too long

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move...



Im begging all my readers some of you I dont even know... please pray. We need direction that only God can provide.