Another thing to the mountain

Well, to add insult to injury... the girl that I used to live with, her sister was giving me a down filled futon, a lazy boy recliner, a kitchen table and 4 chairs, coffee tables, end tables, and a book shelf. Well Vikki called me earlier and said that the mover knocked money off the moving bill if he could have the furniture after it had already been promised to me.

So now, I am moving into a new apartment in 3 days with a chair, a bookshelf, and a computer chair. No bed, no couch, no mattresses, no kitchen table... nothing. And I cant afford to go buy furniture right now. Not until I get my credit card bill paid, and pay Vikki the $500 I borrowed for the security and pet deposits. I am sitting in a friends apartment alone (she is out of town) sobbing. I know that this is just the devil throwing anything and everything possible at me. I am trying so hard to do the right thing and live the right way... and I keep getting whacked in the face

I really just want someone to hold me while I cry. But everyone just looks at me and gives me the sympathetic smile and moves on... Im going to go to sleep now, last night for a long time that I get a bed to sleep in and not a floor. I need to look at it this way I suppose... at least I have a place with a roof over my head. Good night