Gods healing touch

I will stop my whining, after the last post you guys probably have had enough of me. I hope not, Please know I am human and am prone to have my pity parties. But today I look back to 3 years ago and see a very pivotal point in my life and I must share and celebrate!

Wow. 3 years today. It doesn't seem possible. You see, 3 years ago I was 17 when I tried to take my life. You guys have read about my struggles in prior blogs and I think I touched on my hospital stay. The doctors said I am fortunate that I didn't die, but for a long time after the attempt I felt anything but lucky. You see, my intent was to die. I felt no reason to live. It was hard for me to understand , but the fact that my attempt didn't work was one more "failure" in my broken young mind.

I left the hospital and for the next 3 years Ive had a front row seat to watch God perform a miracle. It wasn't easy, but I began a journey to wholeness. I started to understand what it meant to be a child of God. I discovered who I was, separate from my past, separate from what people thought or spoke about me. And believe me, people thought what they wanted to, and spoke awful things about me. But Thankfully God knew the truth and bestowed his wonderful grace on my life. His mercy said NO to Satan and all his armies who assaulted my heart. God changed my life.

Today I stand. Today I am thankful. Today God has given me a life restored. Today I am a college senior. Today I have a family that as dysfunctional as we are, I know they love me. Today I have a church family, though broken, is a refuge for me and I know that they are the people I can go to. Today I have friends who would do anything to help me. Today I have a job, though its not the one I want and it produces stress, at least I can pay my bills.Today I have a man in my life that has changed me in so many ways and I wouldn't trade him for the world. Today I am blessed beyond measure!

I am healed, but I have not forgotten where I once was and that's why I am able to share my story today. It's also why I share it one-on-one with others who find themselves in a similar place. This type of anniversary might be one that some would want to forget, but I see it as a day to celebrate life and second chances. I think it offers a powerful message and testimony to Gods grace: that when others have given up on you, or maybe you've even given up on yourself, there is still hope.

For some, depression wraps around life choices. Or, feelings of hopelessness might result from emotional or physical exhaustion. While it can take time to pinpoint the root cause, it's vital that you know from this moment on that God sees you. He loves you and He cares. He's a God of hope and healing. So today I pray that you will feel His arms reaching for you, just like I did the day I choose life and still do today!

Lord, I believe that today a someone is reading this who believes he/she has been forgotten. I thank you that You will wrap Your love around them and remind them that You are with them. May they know You see them, and that they are precious and valuable in Your sight. Give them hope, wisdom, peace and renewed joy, a new beginning today.