Dreams

When I was admitted to nusing school I had these big dreams of graduating this december... as we all know, its not happening quite that way. I was a basket case at first. But then I realized that God has different bigger plans for me. I have always been a "journaler" I love to write and before I started blogging I always kept a journal. Well, the kids that I used to babysit decided that when they found it one day that it was a coloring book. I was ok... no harm no foul. Well I pulled it out the other day and started reading some of the things that were in it. I had these big dreams. But God has made my life so much better than I ever could have dreamt.

No, I wont graduate untill December 2010. But thats ok. And even though I want nothing more than to be out of school, moving on with my life I have to sit back and go on Gods timing. I think becuase so many of my friends are graduating, getting engaged, getting married, having babies... I just want out of school. I know that I am biologically wired for these things, but they are in Gods time. Its hard for me to not say "I WANT THEM NOW" you think Im kidding... NOPE. The more I realize that "Im a big kid now" the more that I want those things. I was definately the kid that played "mommy" and the housewife... Patience crystal!! Gods timing (pretty much ignore this part.... I needed to ramble)

back on topic now:

Do you have a dream that looks dead from where you are standing? Have you thrown in the towel, chalked your efforts up to experience and moved on? Just don't move so far that God can't bring you back to the dream when He is ready. Don't fill in the pages of your notebook with hopeless scribbles and not give Him room to fill the pages with His Word, words of life and hope and vision. Yes, surrender your dreams—holding onto them lightly and always keeping His plans as your purpose, ready to lay down anything He asks because no dream is more important than Him. But also remember that God loves to bring about the unexpected, throwing us little surprise parties that bring joy to His Father's heart.

My journal now serves as a reminder—in childlike script—of God's ability to overcome the impossible and open doors that were once slammed shut. I wouldn't trade those scribbled-on pages for anything! Now I look forward to filling the pages of a new notebook with all new dreams. Dreams that were handed back to me when I least expected it. School was given back to me. Love was given to me in a man that I cant ever fathom being without. My family is a work in progress.

Lord, please help me to trust You when things don't work out and I have to surrender my dreams. Help me to rest in the fact that You see things from a much bigger vantage point than I ever could. Help me to know that You always have my best interests in mind, even when You close doors I wanted open. And help me Lord to be ever mindful of Your power that is always at work—even when I can't see it.