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So many times in my life , I've chosen the wrong words - words that were tainted with bitterness, words that were emotionally toxic, words that I haven't fully thought out before opening my mouth. But I'm so thankful the Lord had been working on preparing my heart for these circumstances and instead of reacting immediately with what would be a disastrous response, and can allow the Holy Spirit a few seconds to interrupt my natural flesh feelings.

Then, because of God's Spirit working in me, I am able to speak giving words into a weary heart, instead of words that tear down and break apart the human spirit. I can think of instances when a comment has crossed my mind, but thankfully God has been equipping me with the ability to not say the first thing that crosses my mind. Had I been left to my own flesh reaction that day, it could have set us on the road to really hurting someone. This goes with saying, I would never intentionally hurt someone. But I tend to not think about what I say, and say the first thing that hits my mind.But, because of God's response being stored up in me, these situations have been avoided and I have been able to offer counsel instead of painful words.

I am realizing just how crucial it is to always be aware of God's preparation in our lives. Because He stands in our yesterday, today and tomorrow, He sees all. And He knows the perfect way to prepare our hearts for every situation. When we embrace His preparations, even a girl with firecrackers in her blood like me can have reactions that honor God and breathe life into relationships.

I am realizing (notice that I am a slow learner) that God has given me a voice. I thought for the longest time that I was supposed to be the silent server of God, but I have more thoughts than I can get down. So stick around... who knows whats coming ;)


Dear Lord, remind me to pause before I react. Sometimes the stresses of life pull at my emotions, which cause me to have reactions that tear at my witness. Please forgive me for poor reactions in my past. Thank You for second chances. Thank You for the way You prepare my heart for everything You see that I'll be facing today, tomorrow and in all my tomorrows to come