Joyful not envious

Today, this was just what I needed to hear! My mother means well but she doesnt think sometimes before she tells me things. She starts texting me about all the girls that I ran around with in high school to give me the update on which ones are engaged, married, or pregnant. Thats all fine and well, but I have been real discouraged about the state of my life. I am blessed to be doing what I love. I love being a nurse! I think where I am getting hung up is that I have achieved one thing, now I am ready to tackle the next dream. And I KNOW that I have to be content and wait on the Lord. But its so hard when I have such an incredible man in my life! I dont like saying goodbye and us going our separate ways.

BUT.... I am learning to be content. I am learning to be ok with not knowing where my life is going. I am learning to be content with keeping my faith in God to let his plan for my life to fulfill.

I am learning that I have to be joyful and not envious of my friends.

I was asked by a girl at church to help her pray about a baby that they want to try and have. I was so taken off guard that someone wants me to pray for her to get something I want. Especially when she already got the first part of my dreams and didn't wait NEAR as long as I have. I know... I know.... get over it! haha We have both been talking and Ive realized that I have to be willing to pray for her. I have to not be so selfish! God has my back, he knows the things I want more than my next breath sometimes. He knows that every time I see someone else is engaged or married that I roll my eyes... I have been learning this week to hold me head up and smile and to trust that God has my life planned out. And if I sit back and let him work his will it will be a million times better than I could ever imagine!

Father God, Help me to lean on you and to squeeze your hand a little tighter when things come at me to discourage me and try to tear me down! Help me to be joyful and not envious!