so mad at myself right now

I am so frustrated. I had found a place of patience. I had found a place where it didnt hurt anymore... but tonight someone made an innocent comment. I know he meant nothing by it... but all the impatience came back. On my way home the devil decided to strap in the seat beside me and make me start thinking, "He doesnt want you." "Your going to be alone." "Your worthless compared to him... hes too good for you." And it went on and on. Discouraged is what I feel. Discouraged that I actually fell into his snare. Discourage that the peace and patience that I found gave way back to the painful feeling of impatience. Thats what it is... painful.