Oi

Sigh... Just when I think Ive got my feet on the ground and rooted... Im being patient and it actually isn't that bad! Its almost blissful! I am reminded of how special it will be when its FINALLY my turn. BUT I look at my phone to see a text. Its a picture message from a good friend of mine showing me her engagement ring that she got today. AGGGHHH... is what I want to scream at the tip top of my lungs! Then I get mad at myself, because this is my friend and she is happy and she wants me to be happy for her. I would want her to be happy if it were me.

But that ugly little impatient side comes creeping back up and takes a seat in my head and then slips into that desiring part of my heart. Ive never really wanted something so much. I dont know what to do with myself. I dont know what to say to my heart. The "just be patient, your day will come" speech isn't working for me! It just makes me even more flustered.

But I am having to write it in stone on my heart, that it will be so extraordinarily exciting when it is finally my turn. I am not going to lie... I am SICK of hearing of everyone I know getting their dream... I want some reality to my dreams. But I am trying soooo soooo soooo soooo hard to remember that God has a plan and that I have to wait for his plan to unfold and it will be PERFECT! I cant wait for that perfect moment someday....