Love/Hate relationship

I have a love hate relationship with his goodbye hugs.

I love them because well... I love his hugs. For that 45 seconds I am ok. I feel safe when I am in his arms, like nothing can happen to me. For me, having grown up with a super protective dad who was strong and always concerned about my safety... living on my own sometimes is scary. It is very empowering for me to do what a lot of women before me did not... I was not made to be on my own. Some people can swing it but I am not one of them.

I hate goodbye hugs... because when he lets go... that means we have to go our separate ways and I have to go home alone. I do not enjoy it whatsoever... hopefully someday I wont have to say goodbye. Someday... I hate that word about as much as I do patience. Haha Gods still working on making me patient.