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I love how he can make everything in my world seem right when its all wrong. I love that in a crowd when he wraps his arms around me and holds me were all alone in our own special place. I love that when his hand is in mine, out hearts sync together... I love that a simple "I love you" erases all my fears just for that moment in time. Love is a powerful emotion, dont abuse it- use it-embrace it-protect it- enjoy it.

I got so frustrated this past weekend. James and I NEVER EVER get time alone together. And since I LOVE the 4th of July (its like Christmas to me) and we were going to get to watch fireworks together... I was SOOOOO excited! BUT... the kids were there. Im not angry at the kids... I was just heartbroken that we lost our time together on my favorite day!! But when he put his arms around me... not caring who saw... it made my weekend! I felt safe. I dont think he realizes sometimes that I am a young female living practically alone... its scary when you stop and think about it... I feel unsafe alot. But let me tell you... to have him to just hold me... changed me... It made me feel safe. I made me feel that no matter what came I would be ok as long as he held me. It made me fall even more in love with this wonderful man. Yes, I get upset that we dont get to spend time together and yes I get upset that I have to share him... but for the first time in a long time... I didnt doubt how he feels about me.

I find it so funny how we as humans thrive on touch. I am really glad that our relationship isnt just based on the physical side... but I am glad to know that the physical chemistry is there. I did get a bit tickled at him... he kept ever so slightly getting closer to me until he finally just committed and wrapped me in his arms. It felt good to be desired ... to be desired is a womans heart. We want to know that you want to be with us, and we want to be held and touched... its in our human nature. The only bad part is that it left me longing to be with him and not home alone. And tonight I am longing to just be held because everything feels like its spiraling out of control...