How great is our God!?!?!

WOW! I just cant express just how great the God I serve is! He tells the sun to rise and set. He controls just how far the waves can crash on the shores. From the mountains to the sea and the plains in between his existence spreads between and even farther. He created the very molecular structure of my body and keeps them all together. He keeps the essential elements of life like oxygen present for me. He is my portion. He visits with me, sustains me, revives me. I can not exist without his existence, so how can I say there is NO GOD?!?!

Sure, there are things in life like sickness, burdens, financial burdens and more that can sink a soul into a deep sea of distress. But with a God like I serve... How can I even begin to think that my God will fail me. Has he ever given me any reason to question if he will not come through? Has he ever decided that he was just too tired to help me out of a mess? Has he ever given up on me when I am the most stubborn being he created? Has he ever thought that I am useless, that I am not good enough? Has he? I wish there was some profound answer to this...but I can only simply utter... no. I am awestruck that God is simple enough that a child can understand his greatness! Yet, we complicate his existence to the point that we have disputes over who is right and who is wrong.

We were slow at work this morning, SO I decided to sit out back and watch the sun rise with my coffee. The Lord spoke to me so gently and it was like he was painting the sky in reds, oranges, yellows, and pinks... just for me. I felt like the only human alive at that very instant. I find it so amazing that he was visiting with millions of others at the same time... but yet I had a moment alone with God himself!! How amazing. I feel pulled at times from stern to stern. Every person wants a piece of my time and there is only one of me. unfortunately... I cant give everyone a piece at once... but God can. We all simultaneously need him and he never has to tell one soul to hang on a second. Seconds have no meaning to him. Time has no hold over his ability.

I went to the Lord this morning... complaining. Lord I need patience, Lord I want this, Lord can you, Lord will you, Lord I need you to. I was reminded though... the statement, Lord I is a problem. Lord YOU is the appropriate offering. Here God was displaying his beauty for me. He was whispering in my ear to just acknowledge his greatness and realize that he is with me. I don't need big flashing signs, the earth does not have to move for Me to know that he is near. At the same time he was telling me to talk to him and tell him what I needed.

Patience Crystal was the reply I got. I sigh and just look up and say, "Lord you know as well as I do, I'm not good at this patience thing." I have always been one to think that God loves to laugh. Now I don't mean the finger pointing "ha ha look what I can do" as he pushes us to the ground laughter. I mean the, "gosh, you are so silly child, but I love ya anyway child" kind of chuckle. So I could just hear God chuckle at and with me this morning as he responds to me, "I know... that is why I told you to be patient in the first place."

I love that God is not a being that sits in an office that I have to have an appointment to meet with. He doesn't have a planner that he has to slot out time with me. When my heart is willing he shows up. Even when I go to him with my, Lord I's, he is gracious enough to make me be quiet (which is hard to do) and just shows me his glory.

So since I cant defy my humanity I will fret. I will wonder whether I will find a job to meet my needs and schedule. I will be concerned about my church and what is going to happen. I will wonder why it is I am supposed to be graduating this December, but now am waiting till next December. I will wonder why everyone around me seems to be where I want to be, and I will wonder if I will ever be there. I will rent in the city which I hate, and wonder if I will ever have a house with a yard and some kids running around and have a husband sitting on the front porch swing with me. But since I am human, I can rest in the fact that God has time in his hands. And just because it feels like years that I am waiting, time has no meaning to God. He knows just how long I need to wait.

I have no reason to complain about my job... there are people who would love to just have a job, even if the conditions aren't as favorable. I have to reason to complain about my living situation... No, it isn't where I want to be, but I could be homeless. I should not worry about whether I will have the kids and husband, when I know that God has everyone a mate and I truly believe I am with mine, and in Gods time I will have the "house and a husband" dream. I should not stress about it, but enjoy the love and acceptance that James brings into my life. I thought as I was driving today after listening to a message he left me, I don't deserve someone as sweet and loving as him in my life. He deserves so much better than a scatter-brained ordinary person. But yet, God has chosen to bless me with him and allow me to love him and see a future with him. I have no reason to be upset about not graduating on time... there is a reason for it I may not ever know the reason. But at least I am able to go to school when so many before me were not able to, and so many now cant afford to go. I am grateful for my scholarship that is making it possible for me to finish my last year of school. I have no reason to worry about anything... I serve a mighty God and....

I am blessed.

WHAT A GOD WE SERVE!