God watching

This morning before church I woke up really early, so I decided to go for a run. Yes I know its March and it was cold, but I love early morning runs outside. As I ran I realized that I was all alone. So I thought. As I ran God was speaking to me and told me to watch for him.

I love spring because I love to bird watch. I'm not an aviary fanatic,I actually am a bit afraid of birds. I just love to watch birds coming out and just being what God in intended them to be... a bird. Bear with me... I'm going somewhere with this. As I thought about bird watching and what God had said, watch for me. It was then I realized that I should be "God Watching" more than I do. God is everywhere but we are so busy we never see him. We wait for the earth to shake and God to drop flashing signs in front of us. But God reveals himself in many subtle ways that are truly amazing.

As I ran, Psalm 46:10 returned to my memory, "Be still and know that I am God." I turned my ipod off, stopped running and just stood there. The birds were singing, the wind was blowing just a little bit so the trees were rustling, and I could hear my own heart beating. God was revealing himself to me through simple things that I never hear. Maybe because I have a medical mind, but to hear my own heart beat and know how it works mechanically is amazing. But to know how it beats spiritually is beyond amazing. To hear the trees rustle, it was almost as if God was breathing new life into me all over again. And then the birds... God had a song for me to hear! It was so awesome to just feel God like he was my running partner for the morning!

God had a reason for letting me know he was there. He knew that the devil was going to pick on me today. James had to go somewhere after church, so we didn't get to have lunch. I was kind of frustrated, because he had ran all over the church all morning and I got to talk to him for a whole minute before he ran off again. I really enjoy Sundays because I get to spend some time with him. But today was different. I just got upset and let it ruin my day. Well it helped make my day stink. My kitten knocked over a $50 bottle of perfume from Victoria secret (which is my favorite) and busted it. As I went in there to clean it up, it scared her and she tipped over my bare minerals foundation and it spilled all over the floor. So I just needed to know that someone was there. Ive been lonely today physically, but spiritually God was right there. The funny thing is, even after this morning when he told me I should be "God watching" I still let myself get wrapped up in the devils attempts to discourage me.


Lord, Thank you for waking me up this morning. I couldn't figure out why I was up at 6am, but I realize you had something for me. Help me to constantly be watching for you and the evidence of you in my life. Your fingerprints are all over my life and I praise you for your almighty hand. Strengthen me to not give in to Satan's attempts to prick at my heart and destroy optimism. You have been so good to me. You fill me when I am empty, you heal me when I am broken, You are my courage when I am discouraged... you found me when I was lost. God I am waiting and watching for you!