Never let the demands of tomorrow interfere with the pleasures and excitement of today.

Never let the demands of tomorrow interfere with the pleasures and excitement of today.

You know we don't always look at what we have, we look at what we don't have. We spend so much time just trying to get by and we bypass all the good stuff. We stress out about each and every little thing that one could ever imagine. But as the parts of my life unraveled last week, I began to think. All the plans that I made for myself we just that.... MY plans. I had it all laid out. Graduate nursing school in 3 1/2 years, get a job, get married , have a few kids and declare, BINGO!! (or UNO, whatever your proclamation of success you prefer.)

But last week when the realization hit that I cant work full time and be a full time nursing student, I realized that my plans were in desperate need of a revamp. So here I stand in the gap of uncertainty. I don't know what I am going to be doing about school. I know that I will be here a semester longer than intended. Now I have time to take on a Spanish minor, which I am thoroughly excited about!

I have spent the last 16 weeks, miserable. Just going through the motions working and going to school that I haven't taken the time to enjoy the little things. I have let my self go physically, emotionally, and worst of all spiritually. And I see now that God has his ways of bringing us back to the place that we need to be and where he wants us to be.

So, as I stand here in this gap of uncertainty, I am ok with not knowing what will happen tomorrow. Im ok not knowing where I will be working in January. Im ok with not knowing what classes I will be taking in the Spring. Im ok with not knowing when I will get married, or how many kids I will have. As much as I want to be out of school being a pediatric nurse, being married, having babies and being a soccer mom driving a minivan. I know I need to enjoy my life now. Why? So I dont wake up 20 years from now, wondering where the heck my 20's went!!!